God’s Masterpiece
My roommate showed me the video below a few weeks ago. I can’t seem to let it go, I can’t seem to stop thinking about it. I very much like controlling my life, and I don’t like surrendering that control up to God.
Especially these last few days. I found myself at LifeLight last night. To be honest, I wasn’t very excited about it and didn’t really want to go. I met up with some friends and as we are talking, I turn around and hear the speaker at the Main Stage to hear Billy Grahm’s grandson say “You might not know why your here, but God knows why your here. I laughed inside. ”I’m just here to see some friends and then head back home” and “Whatever God, your not the reason I’m here today” I said to myself.
As you can probably guess, I was wrong and God did have something in store for me. Well, I hooked up with another friend and our destination was the Souled Out Stage, but our path took us to the Coffee House tent. I was instantly captivated by the worship found there. God started to speak to me.
You see, A few days ago, I said a prayer much like the one said in the Video. I asked God to do what ever it takes to make me more like His son. I guess he doesn’t take long to get started.
Anyways, back to LifeLight. I find myself drifting and thinking about the things I think about. I wish so much that it God’s will was easier to discern, or maybe more to the point, easier to follow. I think I spent the entire night wrestling with God and a good deal of it in tears. I ask God to change my life, and when He starts, I resist. Even now, as I right this post, I think about the paths that are set out before me, wondering which one I’ll walk down. I hope it’s the right one, and I pray for strength to make the right decisions. I pray that God would continue to chisel, no matter how much I struggle and try to run away.
