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Give it a try, but you have to do it right. Copy this whole thing, go to your profile/notes/new note, right click and paste, put the subject back in the title line.

Then comes the hard part. Replace my answers with your own! Then over to the right you can tag as many of your friends as you’d like…include me too, please, so I can see.

Come on, you’re already here, what else have you got to do?

A
- Age:  22
- Annoyance:  Luke-warm
- Animal:  Eagle
B
- Birthday:  Some say December 23rd, some say sometime in April
- Best feeling in the world:  Hanging out with Jesus
- Blind or Deaf:  Deaf (i already have a tough time understanding words, so it wouldn’t be much more)
- Best weather:  Thunderstorms!
- Been in Love:  Thought I was once, till I realized what that really means
- Been on stage?:  Yes
- Believe in Magic:  Yes
- Believe in Santa:  Nope
C
- Candy:  Not really a fan of it, but if I had to choose, M&Ms
- Color:  Red (Crimson Red to be more specific)
- Chocolate/Vanilla:  Vanilla ice cream, chocolate everything else
- Chinese/Mexican Food:  Mexican food
- Cake or pie:  Cake
- Continent to visit:  Europe
- Cheese:  Any kind is good
D
- Day or Night:  Day
- Dancing in the rain:  One of the most fun things to do in the world
- Eyes:  Brown
- Everyone’s got:  a choice
- Ever failed a class?:  Never an ‘F’, but got a ‘D’ in a major class once, retaking it now
F
- First thoughts waking up:  Brain starts working once I’m in the shower.  Then it’s along the lines of:  ”Thank you God for today, help me to live my life for you today.”
- Favorite Food:  Not a fan of food, so nothing is really my favorite
-Favorite Friends:  I love all my friends the same, I couldn’t single any out
G
- Greatest Fear:  That God is bigger than I think he is
- Goals:  Hang out with Jesus for eternity
- Gum:  Never bought any, so whatever you have to share
- Get along with your parents?:  I love my parents very much, but it’s sometimes very hard for me
H
- Hair Color:  Brown?
- Height:  6’3″
- Happy:  Most of the time
- Holiday:  meh
- How do you want to die:  I wouldn’t mind going out preaching the Gospel
I
- Ice Cream:  Vanilla
- Instrument:  Guitar
J
- Jewelry:  No thank you
- Job:  Student computer support specialist for the Office of Information Technology (SDSU)
K
- Kids:  As many as God will provide
- Kickboxing or karate:  Karate (2nd degree black belt)
- Keep a journal?:
L
- Love:  I suck at it, actually I suck at it a lot, but I try to love everyone with all of my strength.
- Letter:  no idea
- Laughed so hard you cried:  Yeah…
M
- Milk flavor:  Anything is good, but Skim or 1%
- Movies:  Fireproof, Serenity
- Motion sickness?:  Not usually, sometimes while reading in a car
- McD’s or BK:  BK
N
- Number:  222
O
- One wish:  Everyone would believe in Jesus
- Pepsi/Coke:  Pepsi
- Perfect Pizza:  one with no grease (is that possible?)
- Piercings:  Wouldn’t get one myself, but they don’t bother me
Q
- Quail:  a small, short-tailed Old World game bird resembling a tiny partridge, typically having brown camouflaged plumage.
R
- Reason to cry:  Love of a Savior
- Reality T.V.:  Don’t like it.  It’s just not reality
- Radio Station:  I listen to 96.5 FM in my car
- Roll your tongue in a circle:  Nope
- Ring size:  um… no idea
S
- Song:  While I’m Waiting
- Shoe size:  13
- Salad Dressing:  Ranch
- Sushi:  No thank you
- Skinny dipped?:  Nope
- Shower?  Every morning
- Strawberries/Blueberries:  Strawberries
T
- Tattoos?:  Wouldn’t get one myself, but I don’t mind them
- Time for bed:  10:30 p.m.
- Thunderstorms:  Are beautiful
U
- Unpredictable:  That’s me
V
- Vacation spot(s):  Barcelona, Spain
W
- Weakness:  Trusting God to be faithful
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you:  Shawn
- Worst feeling:  Not being loved
- Wanted to be a model:  No
- Worst Weather?:  Cold and Windy
X
- X-Rays:  Toe
Y
-Year it is now:  2009
-Yellow:  Sure
Z
- Zoo animal:  Eagle

I realize I often times only write about the good going on in my life, and how awesome God is. I realize, however, that life isn’t perfect, and even I go through hard times. I won’t set this one up much, instead I’ll just go into it.

First, I’m in a lot of pain right now. And it really sucks. I’m not talking a physical pain, but in a spiritual sense. It really sucks because it just tears me up inside. I just want to start crying. It hurts so much. The worst part is that I don’t know why. I don’t know what is causing all this pain. I know it’s something deep, deep inside me, and I really don’t want to start digging at it because that will probably make it worse. The devil has been throwing a lot of things at me, telling me it’s this or that, but I know it is just him trying to get to me and start looking in the wrong places.

Second, I’m really scared. Two parts to this one. As I said above, I’m really scared to dig up what is actually causing this pain. I’m scared because I don’t want it to be more painful then it already is (yeah yeah, I know that if I would just dig it up, then this pain would end, but no, I’d rather just sit here content in the pain I’m in for long time). The other part is (and from a head smart sense, this doesn’t make much sense) I really am comfortable with my God in a box the way He is. I know that as I start down this path of seeking healing, He will reveal to me even more how big He is. He is going to shape me and mold me into someone very different then I am now.

Lastly, and this revelation just came to me last Sunday night while at Oasis. I’m still in love with my father. I think I forget that sometimes. I will still praise Him and worship Him as I wait for Him. I know now that this is all part of His plan and I do (as much as I don’t want t0) trust Him with all of my strength. It isn’t much, but it’s all He asks form. I know I’m not perfect, and I wont be, but I’ll try. The man is simply amazing, and so good to me.

I thank you God, for everything. Thank you for giving me friends in my life who care about me, who see me for who I am, no matter how much I often try to hide it. Thank for Annie and Ashley who are going out of their way to pray for me tonight. Will you lead me, and help me to trust you, for I know that you only want the very best for me. You are so good to me. I don’t deserve your love, but thank you so very much for it. I love you too. Amen.