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I don’t always have the best words, and while what your about to read might not sound the best or be grammatically correct (or even make sense for that matter), it comes from my heart.

I feel like over that last week or so, I have spent the weekend with God. And it’s been amazing! It wasn’t at all what I expected either. I didn’t even know what I was getting myself into.

I think the hardest part for me in my relationship with God is His ability to love me. I’ve never been able to understand why God, the guy who created the Universe, would want to love someone as small as me. I was reading this story about a guy named Mack today. In this part of the story, God told Mack that He was going to have to judge his five children. Mack had to choose two of his children to go to heaven, and the other three were to go to hell.

As you guys know, I don’t have any children, but I do want a lot of children (God willing of course). Wouldn’t that be scary, a bunch of little Adams running around

Anyways, I instantly knew that if I was in that position, that I wouldn’t be able to choose some to live, and some to die. And Mack’s story continued in that same fashion. He told God he didn’t want to choose, that he couldn’t. You see, Mack loved each of his children differently, but none the less he loved them equally. God responds with “What about when one of them hurts your, or is having problems, like Kate? Don’t you love one less when that happens?” Mack responds, almost obviously, “No!” Mack continues resisting this judgment he has to make, and is a complete mess in tears and finally cries out “Can’t I just sacrifice myself or something so they can all go to heaven!”

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Wow…

At this point in hearing this story, I’m in tears, and I think you can see why. God of the universe loves His children. All of them. Every one. He loves them so much, that He sacrificed Himself by sending Jesus to the cross, so that His children could live.

At this point, my mind started to wonder from the story in front of me. I wanted to know why though. Why does God love His children. “Because that is who I am” I hear so clearly. OK, fair enough, God loves, that is His nature. But why did He create me in the first place. The only answer I can come up with is “Why do I want children?” “Because I want to love them.”

I know thats not the fullness of it

I know there is a lot more to learn of His love

I’m a complete mess at this point, tears everywhere, no idea what to think or even how to respond. Here I am, God’s child, whom He loves. He is especially fond of me. He created me so He could love me.

Your His child too. He is fond of you. He is madly in love with you.